diary of a byrd

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Lent is right around the corner and I know we are thinking of things to either take away or add to our lives. Lent is sort of like a redo of New Year's resolutions, sort of. I had originally planned to give up alcohol (let's just call a spade a spade-delicious red wine) but after much consideration i think with these little people running around my house it is an impossible task for me at this point in my life. I then thought I would give up sugar and I am going to seriously work on this one. But in the end I have decided to just be better. This is not me being hard on myself because...

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As I was taking my meds last night, Byrd asked me if I liked to take pills. I don't even know how to explain how this question made me feel. Before the accident the only pill I took was Advil, literally. Byrd has watched me have at least 10 different types of pill bottles next to my bed for the past year and a half and has never once asked that question. Now I only have one pill bottle next to my bed and I take it at night before I go to bed. It is an anti-anxiety pill for my PTSD/dealing with the changes that have happened to my body and life. I no longer take any pain pills. I...

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So I suffer from PTSD. And like many people who suffer this disease, it only shows it's ugly head in stressful situations. Right now Atlanta is under severe storm watch-not pretty snow days, but crazy ice is about to hit us and the power lines and the trees. Our house is surrounded by so many HUGE trees that is freaking me out. I keep thinking that one of those trees is going to snap and hit another then this domino effect is going to happen and we are all going to die. Let's just pray that this does not happen and that we and all of our neighbors will be fine. Maybe without power...

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our trip in photos……

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since moving to georgia i have been lucky enough to become friends with haley sheffield, an extremely talented photographer. she has taken a few photos of byrd and a few of some flowers, but recently i called upon her to capture all of us….me, brad, lane, byrd, woodson, george and rosita rose. haley came over sunday and spent a few hours with us-by the time she arrived i was already a mess because the kids were all over the place. haley handled them all with such ease and kindness and patience-so soothing for the mother of three wild ones. and...

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it has been so difficult for me to post anything in the past few months because i just feel so frazzled all the time. and i wish i could say at this point that my back pain is completely gone but it isn't and i don't know when it will be. we have had a busy weekend decorating the house for the holidays, trimming the tree, doing flowers, working on new ideas, spending time with family and friends. by this afternoon i was hurting so when woodson hit me in the face with his walkie talkie i just started to cry-full. speed. ahead. it was the combination of so many things and the final piece...

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Do you ever have one of those days that you just want to get rid of everything you own, including the computer, the television, the iPhone, the iPad, the technology, the many pairs of shoes, jeans, the multitude of toys, the crazy collection of furniture and sheets, magazines and books, containers and lamps and lint rollers and just all around crap? THAT is definitely a run-onn sentence. I am having one of those days. Today I want to do all of the above. I want to take my family and move to the country. I mean, the Italian countryside would kick ass, but we currently can't do that so I...

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Lately I have been doing a little bit of soul searching-and complaining-about how I look. It seems to be quite the topic of conversation in my head, on this blog, to my friends, and to my husband. What I do not want to happen is it carry over to Byrd. A new friend who could not be more supportive or kind told me yesterday "Listen. You are beautiful. Numbers don't make you who you are and you don't have cancer. You can work on getting stronger and you will feel better about yourself. Beauty is on the inside. You have been injured for so long. It alters perception of self. You have...

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I know you are all looking for something extra cool and super fun to do Thursday, September 19th in Austin.....and I have just the thing. There is this really awesome group called the Austin Bat Cave- a 501(c)3 nonprofit organization that provides children and teenagers (ages 6-18) with opportunities to develop their creative and expository writing skills. All of the programs are free. My good friends Sara Oswalt and Austin Mckenna are on the board, as well as...

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sooooo-i had the ultimate pleasure of working on the most wonderful of wonderful weddings this year with a girl who has since become one of my nearest and dearests. it took place at a restaurant in austin called contigo which truly could be the greatest place on earth. the staff outdid themselves at their first ever wedding-i was just so happy to be working with these talented folks. since i have all but retired from the wedding world, i wanted to post this amazing video that another talented friend made for me,...

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